Some of you might know that the past few weeks hasn't been exactly great for me. Been feeling miserable and bored and worst of all, i can't seem to find my bearing. So when things turn out this way, i turned not to God but to retail shopping. Shoes, bags, clothes, etc! And guess what, it's like God wouldn't allow me to find anything good or something. There isn't a single thing to buy. Trust me, i lowered my standards.. a lot!
So anyway. I was feeling really upset and miserable that i am not jetting across the world. As a little girl, that has been my ambition really. To find a job that pays for me to fly around to world.. working (yeah, its mad to some of you. but great to me okkkaayy). And alas! When i finally found a job, it was very stable - in all sense of the word. So stable i am officially stuck in singapore.
So last sunday, i was just asking God. 'God you played me out lor' And i was upset that i was like a trapped butterfly who can't fly out of my glass cylinder. And honestly, i feel trapped. Really trapped. Just let me fly the world!
As i was doing QT last night, through a very simple verse, God showed me something new..
So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:31-32
When we see this verse, we normally see it as God providing our daily needs. But just last night, i felt that affirmation that God knows the desires of my heart (especially the flying one).. and one day it will be met. I will see the beauties of the world with God :) Right now though, i have to focus on Him. To seek his kingdom, to place Him in first priority.
Come, let's fly the world together :)
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